On the other side

 I Have had a lot of health issues since Tim and I have been married. 8 of those resulted in surgeries. He has always been there. Always supportive. Always waiting. Yesterday it was his turn. And although the surgery wasn't serious, I got a glimpse of what he has gone through. The feeling of leaving him in someone else's hands. The feeling of ...will he be alright. I prayed, I had friends who prayed. I knew things were going to be okay, but still did not like the feeling of what if.

We talk about living our lives like there is no tomorrow. I have tons of students who live by the motto YOLO ... You only live once.... But do we really treasure our time here on earth? Do we live to make people around us smile? Sod we share the love of God? Do we enjoy the beauty He created?

I have been thinking a lot about life like a garden....am I weeding out the negative stuff to let the flowers bloom? Am I surrounding days elf with positive good soil to help me grow stronger, more vibrant and alive?  Or do I let thorns, rocks and weeds invade my thoughts and contaminate my soil?

To live life to the fullest with the blessings God has bestowed on me....not to want more, but be content with what He has blessed me with. To show Anneshia the beauty of life, to love my husband with all my heart, to treat my friends well...these are the flowers I want o bloom in my garden...what's blooming in yours?

Happy

Our pastor has been preaching a series on happiness! It's entitled Run Forrest Run. Thinking back on the movie... I realize just how happy Forrest was! I also realized just how happy I am! A lot has changed in the last year. Is my life perfect...no...but God has helped me overcome so much that I can truly say I am happy. I am happy with the person He is helping me to become. I am happy with the way life is...the good, the bad and the ugly.

Why am I happy...because I know I am no longer in control...I let God take the reins. You see I have always been a fixer...a control freak. And I realized with God's help...that was the reason for my lack of contentment. If I just let go...I would find the happiness He wanted for me. I had a job interview for my dream job...what I went and did my masters for...know what..it's in Gods hands. Pone of my daughters is facing a big difficulty...guess what....He's in control of that too.

I love this! Does this mean I am always worry free...do I not stumble and want to fix things...sure.... But I have a few friends I know I can call and talk to...and they help me get back on track!!!

So here's to happiness!!!!

Deb