Sunday, June 16, 2013

Dad

I sit here now as Father's Day has ended. It's quiet in the house. I just read my daughters FB post thanking both her fathers and my dad and I start to bawl like a baby. Even as I write this.... Tears are streaming down my face. This is one of those days it really hurts that he's gone!

My dad was the best! He and Mom were tough but we had a lot of fun too! Some of my favorite memories are my alone time with my dad. Being the youngest I got the benefit of that a little more as my brother and sister got older! I remember some hilarious fishing trips in Nebraska...one time Dads pole took off into the lake and I watched as he jumped off the bank into the water after it. Of course he caught it!

Then there were times , after Mom was gone that we would just sit and listen to Gospel music together and sing along. He had such a deep bass voice that I can still hear in my head. Sometimes we would sit outside and talk for hours. It was always in the garage and he always had a beer!

Dad loved his family. Even when we disappointed him. When I had to tell him I was pregnant my senior year in high school, I cried for hours because I didn't want to see the disappointed look on his face. But even though he was disappointed, he stood by me. And he loved his first granddaughter and the next nine grand kids like no other.

Is miss him so much. I know the years after Mom dies were very painful for him. I have never seen two people more in love than my parents. I talked to him almost every day after that day. We became closer. It still hurts terribly that he is not here...to see his great-grand kids. To see that I finally lost the weight he begged me to lose and to stop smoking. I know he and mom are proud. I just hope they know their family here misses them and loves them each and very day!!!



Friday, June 7, 2013

Remembering

Remembering - that's why I made this picture yesterday! Although I continue to lose and I see differences in my endurance - I felt in a funk when I hear about some people's miraculous weight-loss. so I dug up this old picture of me and made this as a reminder of just how far I have come! I need to remember that it is a process! I can do this! Anyone can do it!!!

Today i tried something new and fell in love with it! It was the Power Hour at Title boxing Club! i know I am going to be sore - but it felt good. I am still training for my Pikes Peak climb - it is less than 6 weeks away! I have been walking stairs and walking long distances! 

I have a new job! i will be teaching 6th grade LA next year. Was a little bummed I didn't get an administration job - but I know this is where God wants me! I will be in a much more positive environment - which will help with stress which helps with weight-loss!!!

So remember - if you are struggling - take a look back and remember how far you've come!