I am lonely. I miss my mother! She was the only one whom I could tell everything to, cry with and reassure me everything will be ok!
You see, I don't have very many close friends! I am very jealous of people who get to go to lunch, out for dinner or a movie with their girl friends! I don't have that! I need that! My life has changed so drastically in the last 6 months and I feel so alone! I cry driving to and from work because I hurt. I cry going to sleep because there is so much I want to tell someone!
I know those who read this are going to say.... Pray... Give it to God. I pray... I try! But when you are 44 and find yourself raising 4 young ones and you canny celebrate Valentines Day or your birthday.... You have one who has anger and behavior issues .... Not even to mention the problems with some of my own children.... I get angry!
I don't understand Why!
Now I am facing a diagnosis of a major medical issue. I have put back on almost all my weight from stress and sadness and I look up and say why? I wish I could just have a friend! One really really really good friend! One I could call and say... Let me cry!
This is supposed to be the prime of my life!
Tim tries, but there is something about women's friendships!
Thanks for letting me vent!
