Dad

I sit here now as Father's Day has ended. It's quiet in the house. I just read my daughters FB post thanking both her fathers and my dad and I start to bawl like a baby. Even as I write this.... Tears are streaming down my face. This is one of those days it really hurts that he's gone!

My dad was the best! He and Mom were tough but we had a lot of fun too! Some of my favorite memories are my alone time with my dad. Being the youngest I got the benefit of that a little more as my brother and sister got older! I remember some hilarious fishing trips in Nebraska...one time Dads pole took off into the lake and I watched as he jumped off the bank into the water after it. Of course he caught it!

Then there were times , after Mom was gone that we would just sit and listen to Gospel music together and sing along. He had such a deep bass voice that I can still hear in my head. Sometimes we would sit outside and talk for hours. It was always in the garage and he always had a beer!

Dad loved his family. Even when we disappointed him. When I had to tell him I was pregnant my senior year in high school, I cried for hours because I didn't want to see the disappointed look on his face. But even though he was disappointed, he stood by me. And he loved his first granddaughter and the next nine grand kids like no other.

Is miss him so much. I know the years after Mom dies were very painful for him. I have never seen two people more in love than my parents. I talked to him almost every day after that day. We became closer. It still hurts terribly that he is not here...to see his great-grand kids. To see that I finally lost the weight he begged me to lose and to stop smoking. I know he and mom are proud. I just hope they know their family here misses them and loves them each and very day!!!